Emotionally, things have been tough. Although the ingredients to this maelstrom have been brewing for some time, I’ve wondered how much of it may be due to Dee’s arrival? Which I don’t regret, but when you have kept yourself as emotionally guarded as I have, to open that door means letting a lot of other demons out too.

Going back to school has been a huge step. It needed to be done as it’s become more clear to me every day that I need a way to be financially independent. Yet when you take these steps it means admitting other things too…

It’s a hard grief right now to realize that things are reaching a point where they can’t be put together. Or perhaps what’s hard to accept is that sometimes broken hearts are better left that way.